Stress

Hello,

Last week was my first week back to school and boy it was fun! (note: sarcasm alert!!) With new electives and already starting the High School Diploma Curriculum has been quite tough. Homework is already starting to pile up and I`ve already taken two quizzes. I was always a person that didn't feel stress much even near exams. I do get nervous and stuff but I don`t get stressed that much. However the last few exams I've it's been really getting to me with the expectations of others and the thought of how my studies will actually affect my life.

Last Sunday I practically had a nervous breakdown? or was it a panic attack? I wasn`t sure. The whole day I spent doing my homework and decorating a cake for a party the following day ( my mom doesn't know how and the previous day I had other stuff to do). I was basically finished with most of the homework that night but I still had to make a powerpoint because I was running to be one in the committee of my house (school houses). I didn't know what to type in because I didn`t want to brag and have all my awards listed out but then I didn't know what else I could type. Then I started to panic my heart was beating so loud and I still had a bit of homework. My mind went pretty much blank losing all problem solving skills and stuff like that. It was like that for quite a few minutes and I was sat in my room still asking friend what should I type for the powerpoint till she started joking about everything was when I started to snap out of it. It has actually happened before and there where times where it was even more serious. I would just started thinking super negative even if it had absolutely nothing to do with what I was doing. Sometimes I'd just break down and cry in my room, there was no reason for it but I would just started bawling my eyes out and thinking really negative.

I have yet found an absolute solution for this but one of the things I like to do is first try as hard as possible to think of something positive. Then I will scroll on my social media in hope of something that is funny that will be able to cheer me up. If that doesn't work I'll go on youtube and and watch a prank video. It as long as something makes me out, it pulls me out of the mood just enough so that I can get myself together. It doesn't always work and if it doesn't I will try and keep on doing what I have to do, I might cry while I do so and the work might get be really bad but when it's done I'll slowly start to feel better.

Stress isn't necessarily a bad thing as it can motivate you to do things but too much is never a good sign. I think that taking frequent short breaks can help. I also like to give myself to work for, maybe to watch a film, some food etc. Whats most important is finding something that works for you whether it is music or water etc. Preventing too much stress is always better than having to deal with a lot of it. A crucial thing as well with me is too stop procrastinating because too if you do too much everything will be left to last minute then you will get stressed out easily.

Overall just try to make fun out of everything. It's hard but it is worth a try.

Have fun

-agnes  

Instagram wall : project update

Hello,

I just got the photos back from the store and they look great, I found out that there're not a hundred percent square but they look square enough. I've also decided to use blu tack to stick it to my wall so I can reuse the pictures if I stop get tired of it. Also so I can swap out the photos if I want to. I'm not actually sure if it is going to stick well but I'm just going to hope for the best. 

I'm going to be away in a beach house for three days next week and I'm thinking of vlogging  it. It's really beautiful they're and just a nice little getaway. I'm not necessarily going to be unplugged but I'll have slow internet so it'll be a nice in-between state where I can not miss out on important things and relax.

I think I'll be doing the wall later today or tomorrow. I want to get it done before I leave so I'm trying to work it into my schedule,but I'll really hoping it will work so wish me luck and have a great day. 

-agnes

Hapiness

Hello 

Happiness seems like a very big word at times, sometimes it's really easy to put a smile on your face but sometimes turning that frown upside down is the hardest thing in the world. I think that it is important to live a happy life, what is life when you're dreading every day of it. There are so many fun things to live for.

What I like to do when I'm feeling a bit under the weather, I like to first if I really need to, bawl my eyes out, just let out on my emotions.(but not with food ) Then I'll do something that makes feel happy. Sometimes I'll watch a funny movie, if I don't have enough time I'll listen to an upbeat song or watch a funny YouTube video. It doesn't really matter as long as you have fun. However don't do something you'll regret like getting drunk(especially if you're underaged )  eating a whole tub of ice-cream or going shopping and wasting a load of money. This is because when you think back later, you'll ask yourself why did you do that, if you feel really bad about it you'll be unhappy again and the cycle will never end. 

After a few days or until you feel one hundred percent good, you'll want to think why where you unhappy but try doing it positively and try to think what can I do to prevent it from occurring again. 

For example: 

If I was annoyed because someone insulted me, I would tell tell myself to not let it get to me next time and just forget about it as there are many more good things about you then bad, and they were just unlucky to be the one to witness your bad side.

Some things in life just aren't worth it, so just try your best to look on the positive side of things and remember that you are beautiful in your own way and no one can put you down. You are stronger than the people that put you down.

-agnes 

Movie Reveiw : LUCY

Hello,

I know I`m probably a bit late but last week I went to watch Lucy in cinemas.

It was a really cool movie even though it wasn`t as tense as I would`ve liked it to be. However in the story line, the main topic is actually quite a deep topic that isn`t hard to understand but it does tell us the truth. That we have so much potential we don`t even know.Overall it was a nice movie to watch 

Note: Spoilers!

The story revolves around Lucy (Scarlet Johansson) who is tricked into delivering drugs by her new boyfriend while studying in Tai Pei. The drugs where enclosed in her stomach but when in captivation, she was kicked in the stomach, causing the bag to break open and the drugs leak into her body in a large quantity. This results in her gaining enhanced physical and mental abilities, like knowledge entering her brain unconsciously, photographic memory, telekinesis, etc. With her new found abilities, she escapes and goes to the hospital charging into the surgery room demanding that the drugs get removed from her body. She no longer felt pain, but she could remember everything,even to the point that she still knows what it felt when her bones grew when she was still a fetus in her mothers womb. She then starts to do research and stumbles upon Professor Samuel Norman (Morgan Freeman) that studies the human brain. According to his research, a human only uses up to 10% of the whole capacity of the brain. His research revolves around the estimation of what humans would be able to do if they could use more of the brain. I`m not going to reveal anymore but after that, the movies revolves around the drug dealer trying to get the drugs back , the study of Lucy`s enhanced brain and her be able to use more and more of her brain until she can use it fully.

Through out the movie, there are actually references to the natural world for example, when the Drug Dealer was luring in Lucy to help in deliver his drugs, it corresponded to a tiger trying to capture a deer. 

This made the whole idea of the film very real and that this is the nature of living things.

The most important theme in the movie would be that we only use 10%of our brain which is not even a quarter of the great capacity. Even though we can`t really change that in real life ourselves (CPH4 is a real chemical but not the real name for the one referred to in film), I think it really refers to as how much potential one has that we cannot imagine even within that small amount of our brain that we do use. We can actually never imagine. It`s like when you`re running and you think you can`t run more than let`s say 5km. However if you just run for as long as you can at a steady pace until you really can`t push yourself to run anymore and you have someone else to record how much you`ve ran, you`ll most likely exceed your expectations.

Mental Blocks affect us more than physical blocks do, we think we can`t do it but in reality we can, it`s just that we make ourselves believe that we can`t.

All in all we have so much potential not even you know how much that is, so as long as we strive hard to achieve that goal, we will get there. So don`t give up!

-agnes